One-sided? Uhoh.

Isn't it ? 

Hello , As what i'm gonna say today ; feelings. (': 

` Telling myself it isn't worth, obviously . It doesn't work. At all . Looking at you retweeting or favouriting her tweets is like thousand and thousand of knifes stabbing inside my heart . Imagine it , hurts ? Right. Honestly, it's the obvious word you would say . It's like how you're hurting me , hurts . It hurts like one mother fucker . You care for her, you cheer her up when she's sad . What about me ? That girl you don't care . That girl who you neglect , that girl whom care for you and wants your attention so badly . All i can tell myself is , he'll notice you. Just wait, he'll care. It's just the matter of time. I'm lying to myself , isn't it ? You won't care, you won't bother , you won't notice . Right ? All you bother about , all you care , all you notice about is your crush . your crush . YOUR CRUSH . NOT ME . RIGHT? Why am i lying to myself ? (': . Reality hurts, truth hurts, love hurts. This feeling hurts, and you're the one who made me feel like this. I can't say i hate you . Because i love you , the only i one i hate is HER , and MYSELF . I know myself, i honestly can't get hurt anymore . I'm exhausted , i'm drained , i'm tired . But again and again i'm trying and trying . My friends told me to stop trying , they're hurt by seeing me get hurt . I'm sorry , They're mad at me for caring so much, for trying so hard for someone who wouldn't appreciate . They're mad at me because i'm wasting my time crying for someone who don't even care about me. I just smiled and told them, i'll give up soon. Not only i'm lying to them.. I'm lying to myself too .. I want, of course i want to give up on you.. But i can't .. Do you know how difficult is it to forget someone who used to be there when you need advice the most? Who used to make you laugh by his stupid actions .. Who used to make you smile the whole day just by remembering what you said . By saying things just to make you happy... It's not that easy .. Everytime after i cry , i have to remember to remind myself to fake a smile to everybody i see to not let them worry about me .. I have to remind myself to act like i don't care about you when i see you in school .. I don't want to care too.... It's not that simple.. Crying myself to sleep, comforting myself that you'll care one day... In fact, i know that you won't... Why can't you notice me.. Why can't you care ... One day , i'll forget you ...